Day 04: My Views On Religion

I believe that everyone gets the choice to believe in whatever or whomever they want. If someone chooses to believe in a God, multiple Gods or no God, who am I to judge or to tell them that they're wrong?

I grew up in a family that was not religious, but I always wanted to be. I begged my father to bring me to church a few times, which he did, until he didn't anymore. Luckily for me, my family put me into an all-girl Catholic high school. I was eager to learn everything about religion and Catholicism, I even remember asking a girl if she could write down the prayers that everyone would say during the day. I learned them quickly and I tried to learn as much as I could. However, in religion class, I was never comfortable. I found myself questioning many things and couldn't let go of these questions. I didn't like the answers that my teachers would give me because they didn't seem like actual answers. Before I knew it, I found myself disliking Catholicism and it's beliefs. I never quite understood it.

Soon, I realized that many Christian denominations were too similar to Catholicism. Personally, I haven't found a religion that I would feel comfortable following. Whenever I'm asked about religion, I usually say that I don't believe in religion, but I believe in a God or a higher being of some sort. I feel as though many religions are a form of power or control over their people. I find that religions are extremely contradicting, with rules and regulations of what you "shouldn't be." I also see many religious people that do cruel things to others, because of their religious beliefs. I don't believe in any of that. However, I would never bash anyone for believing in any religion. Your beliefs may not be mine but they are still equally as important.

Even though I say I believe in God, that's something that I still struggle with everyday. I want to feel comfortable with that idea and possibly in the future, comfortable with a religion. At the moment, however, I believe I'm a good person and God would be able to see that. That's all.